I'm not sure I have ever been so angry. Angry - yes, I'm a person who mostly sees everything in black and white, which tends to give one lots to be angry about, but I'm pretty sure I've never been as angry as I was today.

Today, down on the square of our small, mostly conservative town I sat with my husband in a Chinese restaurant a few feet away from a table of six medical students from ATSU. I could tell they were med students as they talked - this disturbed me a little since one of them was wearing a tee-shirt about how he sometimes wants to commit mass murder but can't (this seemed a tad inappropriate for a future doctor, but people these days have strange humor, so I didn't think much of it). Then as I sat eating my crab rangoon and wondering if my baby will play 5th grade YMCA basketball like his Aunt Annelise, I head the medical students turn their topic to politics - more specifically abortion and us idiot conservatives stupid views of it. One of the future caregivers of your children loudly proclaimed "I don't know how they can call it life - it's not life! I mean," he corrected conscientiously, "it is ALIVE, I guess, but it's not, you know, sentient!" As I thought of my baby angrily squirming away from the ultrasound yesterday and kicking firmly towards it to show his displeasure I began to consider dumping my husbands Mr. Pibb on this idiotic young doctor.

Another of the med students laughed and mentioned that he had heard that babies weren't really "living" until three months old. They all shared a laugh at this, the black shirted mass murdering one perhaps thinking of all the babies he could legally slaughter. "Yes," proclaimed a tall self satisfied member of the group, "really, shrimp have more brains than babies, that's scientific - they couldn't survive otherwise."

This was the point of their conversation where I suddenly felt in sympathy with the mass murder statement on black shirts back. I really, really almost stood up and walked out of that restaurant. I wanted to get up and hit the shrimp theory guy over the head with my plate of noodles. I wanted to tell tall guy that if he was so fond of abortion, it's really too bad his mom didn't try it. Then Nathan came back from the buffet and distracted me while I cried angry tears into my water.

The whole drive home that anger bubbled up again every time I saw an Obama sign in someones yard and I felt vaguely ill at the shear number of Rebecca MClanahan signs Kirksville boasts.

What sort of messed up world am I bringing my child into anyhow? What if all the Christians don't vote for life...but instead for some screwed up welfare plan? What about all those people who didn't even remember to register? What if, thanks to them, people like those deluded screwy doctors-to-be are running this country next year?

What the heck is wrong with everyone???? Vote pro-life or I swear I will hit you upside the head with Ian's baby tub!

Mom R. - "We aren't going out; we're eating at Crystal's tonight."
Josh - "...can Crystal cook?"

Haha!

Well I've been to the doctor - officially. They took a lot of blood, did some uncomfortable tests and did an ultrasound.  The ultrasound was awesome.  I could see my baby's little arms and legs...I got to see it suck it's thumb!  Aww...

This week I have done a lot of cooking (my new fave thing to do) and baking.  Nate's moms kitchen is still in great disarray so the family has been eating supper here.  Yay!  I like cooking for people! 

Also this week the weather has been crazy fall-like!  I love it.  When it rains it is really cold, but I still like it.  I love fall; it's my fave season!  The cat has been migrating from window to window in a blur of happy-kitty-ness!  She likes the cool breeze and watching the people trimming tree branches outside!

Next week is Ministers Conference which I am looking forward to!  I will get to see my parents; then they will also be coming up to visit us for the weekend afterwards.  I love Ministers Conference...relaxing and I dunno, spiritually refreshing!